£47 cleobetra hit and the window's actually open

Sainsbury's shop covered off a fiver deposit, sun's doing something for once, and I'm sat here scared to type it in case I jinx it. Payday finally landed so I'm not drowning this week, had that little cleobetra session yesterday—nothing mad, just £47—but it hit different when the balance actually stuck around long enough to buy milk and bread without the card declining.

Been so careful lately, almost cowardly, walking away at £12 down like that's discipline and not just fear. But this one I let breathe a bit, teased me for 30 spins then dropped three scarabs in the bonus and I actually cashed out instead of chasing the bigger tease. Window's open, 74°F somehow, and for maybe two hours I feel like someone who's managing.

Anyone else get scared to post when it's going okay? Last time I said I was fine I lost £200 by midnight.