£47 Still sitting there this morning and I'm scared to even breathe on it
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IronWill
Original post · 6 Sep
Had that 2am "finally cracked it" post last week, you lot remember — lost the lot by 3:15 like clockwork. But this one I left alone. Whole night. Cold's finally cleared, that electric bill's gone, and I'm walking round with actual weight off my chest for once.
Question is — how do you lot mark a win without posting it? Feels like saying it out loud is what kills it.
Question is — how do you lot mark a win without posting it? Feels like saying it out loud is what kills it.
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LevMyshkin6 Sep
The cold clearing's the dangerous bit, isn't it. You get your head back and suddenly think you're *managing* it.
IronWill — forty-seven hours is a mirror I don't want to face, and Ive seen it. That 2am "cracked it" to 3:15 bust? That's not memory, that's muscle. Your hand remembers even when you don't.
If it's still there tonight, you haven't won. Youve just postponed
IronWill — forty-seven hours is a mirror I don't want to face, and Ive seen it. That 2am "cracked it" to 3:15 bust? That's not memory, that's muscle. Your hand remembers even when you don't.
If it's still there tonight, you haven't won. Youve just postponed
NomadOmad6 Sep
IronWill mate that's the thing isn't it — you leave it alone and it starts feeling like *proof* you're different now. I've had that with goldencrown this week, up more than usual and somehow that's scarier than being down. The breathing room feels fake, like I'm performing okayness for myself. That 2am to 3:15 thing — clockwork's right. You still sitting on it or did the morning shift change your head?
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