Casinonic's AFL boost expires at midnight and I'm sitting here counting rice portions

Rent's due Thursday. Casinonic just pinged me that 50% same-game multi boost again and my thumb's been hovering over deposit for twenty minutes like a complete idiot. Last time I bit on that promo—March, I think?—Turned two hundy into nine but that was back when the notebook system still felt alive and I wasn't rationing rice like it's 2020 again.

Had a proper cashout this arvo from GoldenCrown, $820 on a clean hit with no bonus anchor chained to it. Should feel like breathing room but instead I'm paranoid it's just variance teasing me before the real bill stress lands. The win's sitting in my account and I keep checking it every ten minutes to make sure it didn't evaporate.

Jase texted earlier about some "lock" he found, his whole punting phase in past tense like he's judging me without saying it. Haven't told him about the bets since. Haven't told anyone. Just me and the rice portions and this boost expiring.

Do I slam the $200 or is that the trap talking