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€47 Up and I actually walked away — does that count as growth or just luck
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Silviadaw
Original post · 1 Aug
Kids finally down, kettle's on, and I'm sitting here with this weird feeling I don't trust. Last night on Cleobetra — €25 in, nothing mental, just steady small hits and one bonus that didn't even pay huge but I felt it. €47 Up. Closed the tab. Went and made toast.
Now I'm staring at the same tab wondering if tonight I prove it was real or prove I'm the same me who chases.
Cal at LuckyVibe told me last month "you deserve a win" and I wanted to believe him so bad I almost cried. Feels pathetic typing it. But that €47 walkaway — the specific number keeps looping — it's like evidence I *could* be someone who stops. Or it's bait. The slots know I remember green sessions better than red ones, right?
Sister's birthday next week and I owe rent and I swore no credit cards this month. So why am I even here typing instead of just... Not?
How's everyone else's Tuesday headspace? Anyone else got a small green session sitting in their chest like a dare?
Now I'm staring at the same tab wondering if tonight I prove it was real or prove I'm the same me who chases.
Cal at LuckyVibe told me last month "you deserve a win" and I wanted to believe him so bad I almost cried. Feels pathetic typing it. But that €47 walkaway — the specific number keeps looping — it's like evidence I *could* be someone who stops. Or it's bait. The slots know I remember green sessions better than red ones, right?
Sister's birthday next week and I owe rent and I swore no credit cards this month. So why am I even here typing instead of just... Not?
How's everyone else's Tuesday headspace? Anyone else got a small green session sitting in their chest like a dare?
3 replies
CallyTheStar1 Aug
Same weird feeling tonight, finished green n all but only cos I hit my ceiling not cos I chose it like u did. £47 Up and my chests actually normal for once but I keep wondering if thats the same win or just... Luck with a timeout attached
U did the actual thing tho. Kids down kettle on proper domestic control I dont even have a kettle rn just sitting here relieved I didnt blow it
U did the actual thing tho. Kids down kettle on proper domestic control I dont even have a kettle rn just sitting here relieved I didnt blow it
VascoDaGama1 Aug
What was the EV on that £47, and how much wagering was left when you bailed?
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GreenThumb1 Aug
Ngl that "weird feeling you don't trust" hits different when you actually stop tho — like the brain's still spinning waiting for the next hit to justify the last hour
€47 Up and walking is growth imo, the luck part is just whether you get to feel smug or paranoid about it after
Me I'd have convinced myself "just til it hits 60" then watched it evaporate, so respect
€47 Up and walking is growth imo, the luck part is just whether you get to feel smug or paranoid about it after
Me I'd have convinced myself "just til it hits 60" then watched it evaporate, so respect
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