The quiet after a rough one hits different when you're still owed

Still feel that chased session in my shoulders, tbh. Tuesday night turned into something uglier than it needed to be — kept telling myself "just until the bonus hits" like that's a plan. casinonic app open on the night bus home, 6:40am, nobody around to see me do it.

Woke up this morning and the flat's freezing. Not even the cold, just — the quiet. Phone's on 4% and I can't be arsed plugging it in. That lassie from last week messaged again though, said she actually got out of donbet clean with the withdrawal. Should feel good, shouldn't it? Does for a